I Don't Get It.......
My whole life, I was 'programmed' to believe a certain way.....to believe certain things. But when it comes down to it, do I truly believe it???? Hell no....it is all a bunch of words to me with no substance in my life.
I know all the scriptures in my head.....all the pat answers....all the right things to say, but I have no idea how to walk it out. I know how to make it 'look' good to those around me, but when I go home to nobody and shut the door to my one room apartment, I find myself a different person.....a person who hates life and hates the life I am living....wondering if this is all there is to life? Then what is the use???
If the next 37 years is going to involve as much pain and suffering as the first.....then I quit! I am tired of never giving up and always 'being strong'.
I don't get how to make my heart understand that which my mind seems to know.....do you get it????
posted by Suz @ 6:18 PM
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Since I came to the Lord in 1969 there were times in my life where I felt like giving up but, the Lord was Always right there. It is in those times His strenghth comes through. We may not always like what's going on in our life but when we experience Gods' love, mercy, grace, and joy in Him because of who He is, we come through it and have more confidence & revelation of Him and His Word. It's one day, one step at a time. That is our walk with the Lord. There's a couple scriptures that really have spoken to me. The first one is in Luke 22:31 when Jesus says to Peter; "Simon,Simon! satan wishes to sift (inward agitation to destroy our faith,potential and the plan God has for our lives) you as wheat but I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail and WHEN you have recovered, you in your turn must strengthen your brothers(sisters)" The Other one is when David was annointed king when he a child. Yet , God knew he would commit adultry and be the one responsible for murder later in life but He Knew Davids' heart and He saw his end from his beginning. Also, of couse there's Jer. 29:11 which we all know !! Hallelujah! Let's rejoice and believe remembering that no matter what we feel or what thoughts the enemy puts in our minds God is the author and the finisher of our faith. NO weapon formed against us will prosper! It's all because of JESUS. We are in Him , He is in us and we are in the Father, Yahweh God!! And we have that wonderful awesome gift, His Holy Spirit!!! Praise Him Forever!!!!!!!
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